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Originally Posted by Curdled_Pus
You don't say. Did you read any text? themiker says he did this to the rat on the pic! Now what do you think of that!? Hey sillydreamer, I found a very disturbing trail of themiker all over the net. Some are concentrated to certain sites. I'm not going to flame him or anything but I'll say this is a terribly disturbed individual.
But, I will say at least he seems to be upfront about his life. He knows what he is. That's more then some on here who hide behind a false pretense & putting up all sorts of fronts.
And what's even more disturbing is I don't think he's faking. If he is he is good. I look at some of his text as a kind of therapy for him. Like "positive writing" thing. That is a good thing only instead of throwing or burning the paper afterward its on the net forever.
That's all
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I would like to get help understand why i target rats and would target monkets.. Maybe pigs if i was on a farm.. Dogs, Cats I am 100% loving and protective of them.. I know all too well when people come forward and seek help for this it stays with them for life..
Like if a guy " who was poor or not wealthy enough to afford a non county theripist" came forward and said he was addicted to child porn, he would always have that on some sort of record that the state could look at. I know what I did was wrong and very disturbing, so disturbing that I am ashamed of anyone seeing my face.
My last remaining rat is nice to me, its been about 2 months since I have abused him, maybe he forgot? I take good care of him and despite him only having 1 foot, he hops around just fine. I may introduce him to a female rat but my girlfriend may be on to me as I told her I got him free from some mom whos kids abused him.
I've never had any problems with hurting people, Im in my late 20s almost 30s and sure I have a temper sometimes but I never hurt women.. I would not back down from hurting a guy who started a physical altercation with me..
I do have a really bad problem destroying property though, I rub feces on public bathrooms and have never been spoted doing it..
My dad died when i was 21, my mom has not been free since I was 12. I grew up in foster homes untill 16 years old when I was allowed to live with my dad.. had a hard relating to women and always go for girls who have low self esteem but I feel the need to make them feel good about themselves.
I know when i was having hard time finding work or making good grade in college I would hurt rats more.
One thing that disturbs me is when I am loving on my cat I tend to hold the left side of my jaw close together, same as i do when i was putting q-tips dipped in hot pepper sauce into my rats rectum or clamping its testicles with a paper clamp..
I am not stupid, I am smart yet this violence towards rats will be my downfall, nothing stays silent forever, someday I will pay for this. I pray for forgiveness from god but was always taught unless we are truely sorry for what we did , we do not get forgiveness. I ask god to help me feel sorry for what i did so I can be forgiven.
The smearing of feces is something I enjoy, mostly when I am feeling angry or down in life, it helps seeing someone else angry. I used to also put it on doorhandles inside public places but was almost caught.
As tempted as I am to go on and on about that because its something I am not shamed of, I wont.. I need to see if there is a online site I can visit for help.. I really dont want to hurt rats ever again.